“You WILL Get Through This”

Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way. – James 1: 2-4 (The Message)

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Being in the “pit” stinks, but the pit does one thing. It forces us to look up and someone from up there must come down and give us a hand. – Max Lucado

I heard this quote today and it resonated with me. I have been in the pit more than once. Going through a tumultuous relationship, then divorce and then to the ultimate pit (which is no secret here) – a complete breakdown of everything I knew to be the norm in my life and into the grips of anxiety and panic attacks.

When you are in any pit or low point in your life, no matter what it may be, the pain and suffering may seem endless. You can wish and hope all you want but you have to do something more, something much bigger to achieve your peace. You have to look up, pray, cry out to God.

He will answer. But one thing I have learned through all of this is that He answers in His own time. I still have many moments when I say to Him “Why am I still battling this on some level?” I have come a long way but I am not yet where He needs me to be so I have to “wait patiently on the Lord”. Now, I am not a patient person by any means. I want things done…NOW. (He must laugh at me when He sees how I try to still be in control.) So what do I do while I am waiting? As one of my favorite songs by John Waller goes:

While I’m waiting….I will serve You

While I’m waiting….I will worship

While I’m waiting….I will not faint

I’ll be running the race even while I wait

Don’t hang your head while you are in the pit. Look up and ask for help. As you are on your way out, be patient. Praise God for helping you. Everything you go through is molding you for what lies ahead. It may not make sense now but there is a reason. Take comfort in that. Continue to worship and remind yourself every day that….

You’ll get through this.

It won’t be painless.

It won’t be quick.

But God will use this mess for good.

Don’t be foolish or naïve.

But don’t despair either.

With God’s help, you’ll get through this.

—Max Lucado

 

 

“Peace of God In, Stress and Worry Out”

I had a thought driving to work this morning. Throughout the past few months as I have dealt with this change in my life, I have thought about good days vs. bad days. When people ask how I am doing, I generally say, “I have good days and bad days but I guess I’m doing alright”.

I tend to look back on the week and see it as a bad week with some good days. I realized I need to turn that thinking around to something more positive. I need to see it as a good week with a few bad moments. You really are what you think. If you think it you will be it. Proverbs 23: 7 says “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he”.

I admit I haven’t always been the most positive person, at least towards myself. I can encourage a friend or someone in my family all day long, but I could never quite find a way to encourage myself or to believe in the things that other people would say to me. I would think “Oh they’re just saying that to be nice”. I realize that is probably why I came to where I am today. I could blame my past or bad relationships but that’s just the easy way out. Ultimately, we are in control of our feelings and thoughts. With negative thinking, we believe more of what goes through our own mind that the words that come from someone who loves us, including God. I am working hard every day to change that.

Last night I woke up and wasn’t feeling so well. I was having some anxiety. Nothing serious but I usually don’t just wake up feeling that way. I know it is due to some changes I am making this week (good but difficult changes) I laid there and tried to do some deep breathing to calm myself and as I took a breath I would say, peace of God in, and then I would exhale and say, stress and worry out. I slowly started to doze back off to sleep, still repeating that and then I saw (or dreamed maybe, Im not sure) that God was taking all of the stress into his hands and releasing it and as He did it took the shape of a white dove and flew away. This morning when I had my prayer time I heard a still, small voice say Psalm 55, so I looked it up…

Fear and trembling have beset me;

horror has overwhelmed me.

I said, “Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!

I would fly away.

I would flee far away and stay in the desert

I would hurry to my place of shelter, far from the tempest and storm.

 It overwhelms me when something like that happens…I always take it as the most loving sign God can give me. His word.

God didn’t give us a beautiful life and then expect us to ignore it. We are given this life because we are strong enough to live it, with His help and through our own faith and obedience to Him.